I Feel Silly…

Ok so I’ve been working on a 101 in 1001 goal list which you can see on my personal blog here. One of those goals is to take 1 day a month as “mommy day”. I can do whatever I choose with this day but it’s all mine. Well yesterday was my very first day. I decided I was going to get my nails done since it had been a while since I had them done, I actually took my acrylics off for a while (another sign of my ppd, I completely stopped taking care of myself). Anyways I am somewhat picky about my nails, but I say if you’re paying for a service be happy with it! I called two different salons in my area made an appointment at one, turns out they don’t do what I wanted (which I found out upon arriving to my appointment) at least I got a free pedicure after that one! Called the second appointment was assured once again they provided the service the way I want it done, turns out they do offer it they are just terrible at it. About 15 minutes into my service I decide this is just bad! The nail tech says she not comfortable using the forms and apologize (in a snotty tone). I say I will get them done someplace else, but you shouldn’t assure costumers you can do something, you’re not actually able to do, she then looks at me like I’m a terrible person for saying this!

But here’s the silly part, I actually felt pretty good yesterday I wasn’t in a bad mood at all, I was even able to roll with the punches on the first mishap. But my the afternoon when the second appointment failed I was so depressed. I actually cried…over getting my nails done! I know there are huge terrible things int he world outside of my manicure but for some reason I was devastated! I know this is part of my ppd and I know that I’ll get better but sometimes I think I’m just stupid and shallow and selfish, which just makes me more depressed…